Evelyn POV
“What does that mean?” I turn to Noah trying to understand the odd announcement. “Keep reading.” He gently pushes me to finish the email invitation, to gain all the facts.
It was odd, it was an invitation to the Alpha male of the Silvermoon Pack, a clever ruse to discreetly bring him out of hiding.
“The Silvermoon Pack has expanded at an exceptional pace over the last four years. But no one has actually met the so-called Alpha.” Noah says as he takes a step towards me and places his hand on my shoulder.
“You must have known that you couldn’t keep hidden forever, keep the children hidden forever. You’ve made too much of a dent into his pack alliance. He is calling the Alpha out.” Noah never fails to be my advisor, calling me out when nobody else would.
It is true that one of the conditions of starting my own alliance with packs was that they didn’t get to meet with me. Noah was the ambassador on my behalf, I was careful that nobody knew that the Alpha of the Silvermoon was actually a female.
“I’m not ready.” I gasp under my breath, slight fear taking over me. I hade my shaking hands from Noah.
“Reuben wants to meet the legendary Alpha of the Silvermoon Pack. You are fast becoming his biggest threat…”
Well, that was the plan. But why now? Why call me out now…unless the rumours were true.
I remain silent, reading the email over and over again. Noah must pick up on my hesitation as he comes even closer to me, crouching down next to me. His brown eyes look over his gold rimmed glasses into my green ones, his eyebrow furrowed slightly.
“Will you accept the invitation?” Noah asks in a calming supportive voice.
I can feel my wolf pressing forward, wanting to use this opportunity to see her pup’s father again. Thinking perhaps if Reuben could see them, he would repent for his sins. But like I said, she was very black and white and I protected her a lot from life’s grey areas. Too much damage had been caused, too many heart wrenching memories have passed between us.
I delete the email invitation immediately, removing any evidence of having ever received it. To me it was a grey area.
“No! Let’s just wait. From what I’ve heard Reuben is going to offer the Luna position. I believe Vicky will get what she wanted all along. I’d much rather catch them both off guard at her Luna ceremony. That really would be the grand reveal they have been waiting for.”
Entering my bedroom with two cold bottles of white wine, I didn’t even bother to turn on the light.
Why? My body was yearning for the darkness to cover up any slight evidence of sadness in my faical expressions.
I knew this would happen, that he would make Vicky his Luna…so why did it heart so much? I had prepared myself, put a strong guard around my heart…which I thought would be impenetrable even at the mention of him.
At first I thought it would have been six months after my leaving, that he made her his Luna…but four years later and I still wasn’t really prepared.
I take a seat on the floor against the bed, pouring myself a large glass of wine. I look out of the window, glancing up at the strong glow of tonight’s full moon. The glow was the only source of light that lit my dark room.
Why was the thought of Vicky becoming the Red Stone pack’s luna affecting me so much? Was it due to the damage that she caused me? Her deliberate attempt to injure Rex and Elspeth by pushing me down the stairs?
I didn’t know I was carrying twins then, that news was broken when Noah finally ordered that I have a scan to check on the baby. He even arranged for the ultrasound machinery to come to me, knowing I wouldn’t attend a medical centre off pack grounds.
He was so worried about me after the death of my parents, I stopped eating, stopped caring until I heard their two heartbeats. They brought me back to life.
My mind wonders back to the moment. 1 left the Red Stone pack, how he had attacked Noah and accused us of having an affair.
How I rejected the position of Luna and Reuben as my husband. How I came back from the lake house……. No, I can’t keep going back to that memory. I take a long sip of wine and before I know it I have emptied the glass.
I reach my arm out for the bottle and go to pour another glass but my hands are shaking too much. I’d spent the last four years rebuilding our lives…mine, Noah’s, the packs…and most importantly Rex’s and Elspeth’s. Yet here I am, one email and I’m a shaking mess again. I had been a machine working hard as the new Alpha, keeping my emotions in check, keeping myself strong so that one day 1 could face him, one day I could challenge him. I had implemented new security strategies into the pack, built a new alpha house, built an on site medical centre and even a little school for the younger children. If any of the pack saw me now alone in my bedroom, they would think I was a big contrast to the powerful alpha that keeps them safe.
Argh I hate him! I hate him for killing my parents and for destroying the pack.
I can still smell the burning bodies at night time in my dreams. Time is all I had. Time to plan my revenge, my uprising. to plan
So why? Why when after four years do I still have a flutter in my heart at his name. Is it because he is my children’s father? Is it because as Noah suggested… I had never truly gotten over him?
What kind of legendery alpha am I if I can’t control my emotions at his very name. I have to do better, I have to be better for the pack who have entrusted me with their lives this far.
With my hands still shaking, I discard the wine glass and drink directly from the bottle.
Alpha? Who did he think took over the pack? He killed my father in a monstrously unforgiveable way, who would take on the alpha title after that? Did he think I was dead, that I died in his massacre, in the alpha house fire?
I was so distraught when they wanted to move my parent’s bodies that I set fire to the alpha house, my family home. I could bare for them to be
touched, to be moved. I commanded for the warriors to leave it, to let it burn.
He got what he wanted, me dead and Vicky to be his Luna who he was so in love with.
“Maybe you shouldn’t drink anymore, otherwise you’ll be drunk.” My wolf’s concerned voice enters my mind when I now start the second bottle.
“It’s good to be drunk, it helps clear my mind.” I scoff back at her.
“What will you do when you see Reuben again?” She growls at me in annoyance for my growing inebriated state.
“Isn’t this what we always wanted? For us to become his biggest rival and then his reaction when he realises it is us, that we aren’t dead and that we are in fact the Alpha of the Silvermoon.” Even in my mind slur slightly. “Do you really believe he thinks we are dead?” She tries to hide the slight whimper in her tone, but 1 catch it.
“Because he never accepted our rejection as his luna, as his wife.”
“I don’t’ know, maybe he doesn’t think he needs to if he thinks we are dead.” I shrug before sighing.
Deep breath in, deep breath out. I could feel the alcohol relaxing my
tensed muscles and making me now sleepy.
I climb into bed, plumping my pillows before laying back on them. I keep my eye on the strong full moon tonight, letting the glow offer me some comfort.
“Vicky was his real Luna, I was just dispensable to him. Let them have each other. Two twisted hearts suit one another…” I whisper before drifting off to sleep.
